Friday, January 8, 2010

Cherish the Moment

The Lord is really testing me right now. Everyday of my life is a constant struggle to deal with my mother's death. I'd give up every dime and possession I had to just say hello to her, but unfortunately I can't. I'm definitely walking through a rough patch in life right now, and it's getting overwhelming. This feeling of abandonment i'm feeling is a heavy load to bear. Those of you that know me know that I'm always laughing and joking around and it really is genuine, but there's some people throwing some sharp daggers in my happiness right now. I have a lot to be proud of myself for, I'm a college grad, I have a job(Amen), and I have some amazing friends, but I feel so disconnected from my family sometimes that it's hard. And maybe that's my fault. The two people that raised me are 6 feet in the ground. Maybe I'm scared to let people in too deep for fear that I might lose them too. One thing I know for sure is that my eyes stay on God, and this "rough" patch I'm going through will pass! There's a song by the cheetah girls,(lame I know haha), called "Cherish the Moment" and the chrous goes, "Cherish the moment, live for today. We all get lost, just don't lose your way. We all love the sun but we still need the rain, so what good is it too complain, It don't change a thing." So with that, I'll take these hard times and use them as another rung in my ladder on my way to the top! :)

I feel a lot better haha

Peace, ♥ and sooooouuulll